“ね、さくら満開~~~ ね、さくら満開~~~” <<モーニング娘｡ さくら組 - さくら満開>>
Finally I get to settle down to writing a entry. It’s Spring yo. Warmer weather, flowers all bloomin’…I like~~~
SSA
I got the post of Web Director! :heart: I know I didn’t give a very convincing speech, but trust me, I’m very thankful I got the post.
Although there are just those few times I wish I didn’t get that post… It means greater responsibility. Sometimes I get scared I won’t be able to live up to people’s expectations and I’ll be so ashamed of myself. Also, this is something which comes between deary and I. I don’t want to give this up coz it’s something I like to do, yet if it’s going to hurt our relationship, I’ll rather not have it. Although whatever has happened has passed now and we sort of settled it, I really hope things like that won’t have to happen again and again. I don’t want to have to keep feeling like I’m losing myself coz I’m trying to make the relationship work at the expense of my own happiness and my own true self.
Birthday
I spent a quiet birthday with deary. Although the weather was kinda crappy, deary managed to make me feel special. We had dinner at Olive Garden and later he spent some time with me.
I got a shock when I returned to my dorm. Jordan, Xincai, and Kang Jie came out of nowhere with a cake to surprise me. Hehe…deary planned it. Thanks for the cake and sweet gesture, my friends~~~
My RA got me a slice of cake too. 🙂
And to all those who left me birthday greetings, thanks! To 7ners: I miss you girls!
School
I couldn’t get into Japanese class…again. I’m so sad. 🙁
There was an earthquake on Friday. 4+am I woke up to a mildly shaking bed. In my sleepiness, I was wondering if I was just imagining it until the creaking of the wooden frame of my bed and the swaying of my bathrobe ties confirmed that it was real. Haha, finally something “happening” for boring ol’ Urbana-Champaign.
Relationship
Yes, there are sacrifices to be made. It’s kinda hard at times, but I believe we’ll overcome all obstacles together. For once, deary actually told me how he really felt. I felt kinda proud that I am a positive influence in his life. I also felt really blessed.
CJ said to enjoy the “honeymoon” period while it lasts. Yea, 3 months of honeymoon sweetness and we’re already passed 2 months. It kinda scares me a little. I don’t want to quarrel with deary and hurt each other. I think we both don’t want to lose each other.
爱越深，就越害怕失去。
I think it’s kinda impossible not to quarrel, but I pray to God that we’ll both be fine at the end of the day. I have faith in God that if he made us come together, he will help us grow as a couple and strengthen our relationship a little more each day. I also have faith in deary that we’ll treasure our relationship and work together to strengthen it.
