Do You Sometimes Wish

Another one of those impossible things I thought of this morning.

Actually this was something I came across last night but started to think about it this morning. So I was happily scrolling through IG and came across this pic of Yang Yang walking through possibly the airport. Could see fans taking pics of him in the background.

I suppose when you’re a celebrity, you kinda get used to the attention and after a while, you kinda know how to block out all the noise. But I wonder do these celebrities ever (if even for just one second) wish that they could live life like a normal person without all the attention? Does it get tiring that you’re always under the scrutiny of someone? Like someone is always gonna judge you?

Perhaps my questions are taboo coz this is part and parcel of celebrity life and even if you secretly wish for life without the attention, you can’t say it out. Someone will get hurt or angry if you do coz THIS IS part of celebrity life. You don’t get to choose.

I just can’t imagine myself doing this. I think it will be a big inner struggle for me. Coz then I can’t be my true self. I will always have to keep some thoughts to myself. Even if I don’t like something, I have to just pretend I am fine with it. Remember I said I live by the words “This is who I am…” I can’t suppress feelings for too long. It becomes an inner struggle and it makes me feel like I’m losing myself. Which is why I also write…and blog it out.

Men and Scams

Scams a plenty on Instagram. Stolen pics of handsome men. Some seemingly rich and flaunting their wealth with pics of fine cuisine, flashy sports/luxury cars, luxury goods, the list goes on.

All I wanna say is…

OEI. You think all girls are gold diggers meh? You think I have never eaten before what you’ve eaten meh? Please lah. Don’t make me roll my eyes.

The promise of a luxurious lifestyle is attractive to some but hey, I think I much prefer going on dates to the aquarium or a library with interesting decor. Also, self-made gifts and the occasional flowers are much more appreciated coz they contain the giver’s thoughts and love.

If you think money and luxury is what a girl wants then hmmm…you gotta think again. Gonna quote a friend here. What a girl wants is to simply eat and not get fat. TRUE STORY. Nowadays, even I breathe air also can get fat. How leh?!


YOLO = You Only Live Once

After almost 9 months of not stepping into the hairdresser’s, I finally had my hair cut today! Got it rebonded too so no more weird curls and kinks. Also got my favourite bangs.

Last pic before I cut my hair
Yay to haircut!

Nothing too YOLO about it but I have been secretly dreaming of pink ombre hair. No guts to act upon it yet. The bleaching part is making me think twice. My hair gets really dry and frizzy so I don’t want to regret bleaching it.

The more YOLO part is…*drumroll* I have been thinking about getting a tattoo. Shocking right? Elisia getting a tattoo. Who would have thought such words would come out of my mouth. Yea, I don’t want it to be some image. More inspired by Holly Jean’s tattoo of her girl’s name. At first, I thought of doing one with my girls’ names. But then I thought about it and decided a quote in a nice cursive font might be better. “This is who I am…” Words that I live by.

Just a thought. Not acting on it yet coz I know the hubby might go nuts.


You Can Feel the Pain, Don’t You?

I kinda like the pace like that. Not too bogged down with IG work so I have some time to blog my thoughts.

I have been using Spotify a lot lately. Gone are the days of downloading mp3s. This is much more convenient. Doesn’t take up space in my laptop too. But one thing irks me. I can’t find certain songs. Olivia Lufkin, NewS… it is akin to going to KTV and not finding the song you want to sing. Urgh.

I mad love Olivia Lufkin (and her super dolphin voice). Especially her inspi’ Reira (Trapnest) songs. They convey the exact emotions of the characters in NANA.

My favourite song.

I call the latter ‘the impossibly sad song’. You can really feel Reira’s sadness and loneliness in the song. Coz of that, I have good mind to attempt this song at KTV even though it is quite high pitched for me.

If you haven’t read/watched any of Ai Yazawa’s works, you damn well should. NANA, Paradise Kiss…the raw emotions are conveyed very clearly. She portrays the mundane life and struggle to break free to reach one’s dreams very well.

Someone left a comment in one of the YouTube videos saying that Ai Yazawa has a great understanding of humans that a lot of writers don’t get. In NANA, relationships and friendships shift and change a lot like in real life. It is not always a happy ending. People who seem a perfect fit (e.g. Osaki Nana and Ren) do not always end up together.

I need to revisit the manga some time…

What If I Were…

Why, sometimes I’ve believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast.

Alice in “Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland” by Lewis Carroll

Oh yes, I’m having breakfast now and pondering over some (rather superficial) questions.

Before I get to what impossible thing I thought of, let me backtrack a bit. So here’s the thing, I’ve been watching lot of Chinese dramas lately and I noticed that actors and actresses dress a lot in branded clothing even when they are off work. Granted they have signed contracts to endorse certain high fashion brands and maybe it is part of the contract to be seen wearing the brand, but do they ever wear like cheap stuff from Taobao anymore?

I understand that quality might differ a great deal, but what if all else equal?

Wearing branded goods can be as of a status symbol. You know like “Urgh, I’m a well-known celebrity, can’t be caught wearing cheap ass stuff.” Probably true for some, if not all?

Hubby once said that it is a psychological thing. Once you start on branded goods, there is no way you would want to “downgrade” to cheaper stuff. Hmmm…so it is a mindset thing. Kinda bullshit coz I’ve carried slightly branded bags before and I’m still buying stuff off Taobao. But I guess the margin is much smaller in my case as compared to say LV vs. Taobao. I mean if you are seen in high fashion all the time, would you dare be caught in Taobao stuff?

Holding on to that last thought, if I were a celebrity, how would I think? I might just go with high fashion all the time out of familiarity of the brand. Although a small part of me still wants to say yea, it’s bullshit. I wear what I like and what I want. If Taobao stuff looks good, then why not?

Now, here’s the impossible thing I thought of. What if my partner were a celebrity but I am just an ordinary citizen who is not in the entertainment scene? Would I need to be seen in high fashion too to “match” my partner? Can I ever walk out again in my tee, shorts and flip flops coz that is just who I am? Am I going to lose myself and my identity for the sake of my partner? (Ok, I suddenly thought of lolita fashion and the big what if I am forced to leave that behind. Nooooo…lolita fashion is a part of me. 😭)

Ok, breakfast time is over. Back to reality, girl.

Been Too Long

It has been too long since I last blogged. I love writing, I really do. But I find myself having not enough time to do everything I want to. By the time I finish my work on IG, it is almost time to turn in and I spend the last moments of the day unwinding to some Chinese drama.

Lately, I tried conveying some of my thoughts on IG stories (IGs). However, I realise I have to give a very condensed version on IGs, else it will span many stories. This irritates me a little. And when little issues like this irritate me, I feel I need to get in control of it. Coz I know I CAN do something about it.

So I am going to try. Too many thoughts lost before I can pen them down…

MealPal Event Fail

Dear MealPal,

Let me tell you how you failed terribly in your food tasting event yesterday. I believe the aim of the event was to get the word out about your service and at the same time, let people know what kind of food options are available. EXCEPT, I didn’t learn anything about your service at the event and I’m pretty sure most (if not all) of the people who attended it were there only for the free food. Ok, maybe I walked away with one tiny bit of information: $8 for restaurant meals and $1 for hawker meals. That was from the lone standee at the event. There were no flyers being handed out or information boards or staff announcing/introducing what MealPal is all about.

I had to log into my account today to find out that the service is for people working in the CBD area. Totally useless to me. Also found out that it is not a delivery service. People have to download the app on their phones and scan the QR code when they pick up their meals from the restaurants/eateries.

Oh, and did I mention that your rival Burpple, has a similar service too? At least I had more information on their service. *tsk*

I do thank you though for the free food and, the T-shirt and reusable cutlery set that was given out at the event. Also, much thanks for the four free meals through your service too…though I wouldn’t be able to use them.


flowers are not frivolous

It’s bad enough that there are people who think fresh cut flowers are costly, they’re also seen as frivolous. They’re wrong, of course, on both counts. Fresh flowers serve a purpose far beyond aesthetics. They can brighten up rooms, uplift your mood and they can even purify the air in your house. Some flowers also have healing properties, so you can also up cycle bouquets into beauty and wellness products if you’re the crafty type. As for being costly, well, I found a flower delivery in Singapore offering cheap yet stylish bouquets. It’s A Better Florist!

As you can tell from their brand, they strive to offer better products and services to their customers and I think they’ve succeeded. Having the fastest service already makes them among the best flower delivery in Singapore and best florist in Singapore. Imagine getting your order just 90 minutes after checkout. Impressive, right? But for me, the main reason why I keep coming back to them is their simple and fuss-free philosophy. This doesn’t mean their products look cheap, it’s actually the opposite. Just look at these signature bouquets from their flower selection.

A Better Florist’s minimal and straightforward visuals translate to the arrangement and packaging of their products, as if telling the naysayers: flowers are not frivolous, they can be practical and economical. This makes them the best florist in Singapore, in my opinion. In keeping with their practical theme, they even include flower care instructions on their products so we can enjoy the freshness and scent of the flower for a longer period.

If you check out their roster of bouquets and baskets, you’ll notice each one is designed to suit a variety of occasions, from anniversaries to birthdays and national holidays. You can send get well soon hampers and fruit basket delivery to sick friends or colleagues, wreaths for grieving loved ones or  baby baskets for new moms. Their flower delivery in Singapore can also cater to business and corporations looking for flower arrangements for events or grand opening flowers.

If you’re in Hong Kong, Dubai or Abu Dhabi, then I’ve got good news! A Better Florist has recently started Hong Kong flower delivery and Abu Dhabi & Dubai flower delivery to send positive vibes to a wider audience. They’re succeeding in those cities, too, being tagged as best flower delivery in Hong Kong, best florist in Hong Kong  and best florist in Abu Dhabi and Dubai. Even if you’re not a flower aficionado, those achievements speak of their impressive products and services. Prove those fastidious flower critics wrong and try out A Better Florist’s unpretentious blooms!

but this is not cosplay!

Something happened yesterday which kind of sparked my interest to write this entry.

Disclaimer: This issue concerns a friend and her opinions. My entry is not to flame or shame her. She is purely entitled to her opinions as I am to mine.

It was after the Harajuku walk and we were dressed in our lolita outfits, walking around trying to get to our dinner venue. As we passed by an elevator in a mall, a lady exclaimed loudly that we were in cosplay outfits. My friend replied in a slightly annoyed tone: “No, it’s not.” I was amused by her reaction and said that well, not everyone understands the difference between cosplay and lolita fashion. She replied that it irritated her when people had to make comments out loud like that when it is obvious that they are completely ignorant.

Being into the fashion for a couple of years now, I couldn’t help but think back to the time when I was also hot blooded over the issue of people calling lolita fashion, cosplay. Why do people call it cosplay? Do you even know what cosplay means? We are not even trying to imitate a character or person so how can lolita fashion be cosplay? It’s even worse when people think lolita fashion is some kinky fashion coz it has something to do with the novel, Lolita. But that is a discussion for another day.

It just gets too complicated and tiring when almost every single person we meet is clueless about the fashion and we have to launch into this whole explanation on what it is. So I’ve decided to just ignore such comments. No point getting annoyed over it. It isn’t people’s fault that they are ignorant about the topic. I’m not going to waste my time getting all riled up unless someone passes some rude remark about my dressing.

Hmmm…but it wouldn’t hurt if you did some reading up on the fashion to educate yourself ya?

PS: On a separate note, I FORGOT TO TAKE A COORD SHOT. Now I gotta wait for the photographers to post their photos. Meh.

i went on a rollercoaster ride with Misako and Nissy?!

I had a strange yet nice dream two nights ago. It involved members of AAA, Misako and Nissy in particular.

So it seemed AAA was having a concert and I was getting a cab from somewhere to go to the concert venue. Lo and behold, Misako and Nissy were in the queue just before me. Since we were probably all going to the same venue, how about we share a cab? I asked and Misako agreed, and we all boarded the cab.

While in the cab, Misako and I started talking (no idea in what language) but soon we were like old friends. Nissy was for some reason being all sullen and refused to join in the conversation. Misako told me that he’s like that and to ignore him. In the dream, I felt surprised and a tinge of disappointment as it was so unlike him on stage — always bouncing around with energy and being all chatty.

Anyway, soon we reached the concert venue. A couple of fans were already there and started running up to Misako, asking for pictures with her. I was kinda brushed aside but somehow she remembered me and got me to be in the picture too. The fans were all squealing and disturbing this outdoor band performance so we got shoo-ed away.

As we were walking off, Misako suddenly pulled out a concert ticket. Strangely, it had this coupon for a free ride on the rollercoaster at the concert venue. (Yea, strange…like what?! Is this a concert or funfair now??? And why the hell would Misako have a ticket when she is the artiste that will be performing???) She asked me if I’ll go sit the rollercoaster with her and Nissy. I felt so happy.

Soon the rollercoaster ride ended and it was time for her and Nissy to go get ready for the concert. We walked together to the hall. Just as she opened the door to the hall, I took a peek in and saw the other AAA members already there and getting ready. At that moment, Shin-chan came out and wanted to get something. I was so excited and said: “Hi, Shin-chan!” (This time I was sure I spoke in English as I knew he understood English.) At the same time, Shin-chan said: “Hi, I’m Shin!” Maybe he thought it polite to introduce himself since I was Misako’s friend.

And then I woke up. Argh. Would have loved to talk to Shin-chan more. That is like my real life dream too. Ah well.

Hmmm…sure as hell hope that Nissy is not all sullen in real life. That would really be a huge disappointment.