coming home

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[edited on 10 Dec at 1.13am]
I forgot to mention that I called Per to bug her on telling me her flight home so that I may go see her at the airport. Looking at my clock which registered the time as 4+pm, I did the math…which would be around 8+am in UK and decided Per should be up since breakfast is supposed to be served around 7+am. A sleepy voice answered the phone. Oopz…I woke her up from her nice little snooze. I know she won’t be able to get back to sleep then since she mentioned before that once she’s woken up, she can’t go back to sleep.

So sorry dear…
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Per is coming home soon~~~ Yay!

Pwen is home!!! Yay!

Why is episode 9 of 1 Rittoru no Namida downloading SOOOOOO slowly?! Can’t bear to wait. The previous episode was so freakin’ sad. You try to put yourself in each person’s shoes and you feel the pain of that person. Like how the real Aya said, she saw the effort put in by her classmates to give her a good farewell when she had to leave the school for medical reasons and she felt touched. But what she hoped to hear was “Aya, please don’t leave.” Everyone knew that that day would come, it was inevitable. But yet all she yearned for was a simple sentence.

And now I treasure my life so much more…

expectations

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*sigh* It’s good to be able to air your grievances to someone who is willing to listen or feels the same way as you do. Sometimes I find myself in a position where I’m unable to do so because I get shot down each time. What about me not bothering about the family or that I should examine myself first… It begins with anger then turns to sheer disappointment when I hear such stuff. Just coz the words mean to accuse me of something I’m not and they come from someone I hold dear.

I know you have problems and that I’m not in a position to judge you simply coz I will not be able to feel what you feel neither can I read your mind. But I wonder whether you realise the things you say and do hurt others as well. Maybe what I write here will make you feel more down but please don’t. Although I may feel angry or sad but it is only momentary. Whatever happens, you are still family – someone I love. I wouldn’t want anything bad to happen to you.

I spent the afternoon looking through the SAT preparation booklet. I don’t know if I’m right in saying that I’m starting to get cold feet about the whole thing. I’m not sure I can make it. I keep getting thoughts of “what have I gotten myself into?” I really don’t want to waste the money. What if I study and still don’t make it? Sure, everyone keeps saying that I can do it coz I come from a family with a good English language foundation or that I came from the class with the best English language standard back in Secondary school. But I know myself best. Flipping through the booklet, looking at the type of questions I’m going to face, it’s really not easy. I haven’t even seen some of the words before. The essay, I’m not sure I can handle it.

I’ve told my parents not to mention about me taking the test to everyone. Especially since I’m taking the test around the Chinese New Year period. I know an uncle who is bound to criticise if he knew about it. If everyone got to know of it and I don’t make it then it’ll be so 丢脸 and it’ll make me feel worse. That I haven’t lived up to everyone’s expectations.

that final distance

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[edited at 3.25am]
Yes, I’ve gone through the links and did the editing. Now the page looks less…ermz…crowded?

Re-added my mp3 list and pv/mtv list. I removed it sometime ago coz the whole copyright/downloading issue played up again. Did that for safety reasons. Well, it’s back up now. I don’t need to teach you guys on what to do if you’re interested in something in the list right?

Seriously, I think it’s stupid to try and wipe out everyone who downloads stuff. If I could watch all the Japanese stuff on tv, would I be downloading them? And by sharing stuff around, you can’t deny that you learn about new artistes. I’m the kind who downloads and still buy the originals ok.

Alright…I think my brain is shutting down. I might start blabbering already. Off to sleep now.

*does the Akira “kon-kon” thing* (I know Per does that as well coz she messaged me to tell me that she does it…that girl ar… -_-|||)
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Yep yep…the layout’s done. The codes have been edited accordingly. *phew*

I guess I finally decided on something else. Hikki’s “Final Distance” holds so much emotion. Knowing why she sang it makes it all the more touching. Everything just flows together. The song just reminds me to treasure the people around me. Things happen everyday. One moment, someone dear could be here, the next moment gone forever…

I removed the radio blog and calendar. Felt there’s no use for them. I don’t think people really agree with my choice of music. I mean, how many readers actually go listen to the music I put up?

Next up…going to edit the links. Who am I kidding when I started linking every friend’s blog. Ok, being the kaypoh me, I used to look through every blog. The words are “USED TO”. So now I’m just going to link up to blogs and pages that I frequent. Don’t worry, for those who are going to disappear from my links, I haven’t forgotten about you. You will still be in my “Favorites” folder. I do visit your page occasionally, just not as much as those I’ve linked up. =)