two-toned hair

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I used to think Hebe’s two-toned hair was cool…

Until now I see my own two-toned hair and I think it’s HORRIBLE. I need to dye my hair again.

PS: I need to trim my fringe too. I look like a shaggy dog. Deary says I’m a cute dog. :sweat:

cute boy’s birthday

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I am supposed to watch a dvd for EALC 135, but the damn dvd doesn’t want to work on Maru-chan. So, I guess I’ll blog instead.

Last night, we celebrated deary’s birthday. While he was having his exam, I went to get a cake. Uh oh…the only small-sized cakes left were Strawberry Cheesecake and Strawberry. Although Strawberry looks a little weird for a guy coz it’s all pink, but I guess it’s just too bad? Haha, Kang Jie said it’s special coz I chose it and I like pink. Ermz…ok…whatever…

Deary finished his exam early and was waiting for Jordan to finish so he called me. I told Kang Jie to keep quiet, but just nice Thung Han came into the room. I was so afraid that deary heard the door close, so I had to lie. Omg…it was such a pain to lie. I’m like the greatest liar or something. I lied that I was walking around my dorm taking photos for the SSA website and all the while I was in the secret room (PAR Carr lounge). You should have seen my face. I was making all these weird faces while lying.

Well, the plan was supposed to be Jordan and him come over to the secret room after their exam. I guess I didn’t give clear instructions coz they both went back to their rooms. I know that once deary goes back to his room, he won’t want to come out again. So, Jordan calls me and goes what next. I’m like “nooooooo, you can’t let him go back into his room. He won’t want to come out anymore. Please call him and drag him out again.”

I never knew Jordan was a great liar. The boy has certainly learnt well, suddenly become less blur and can think faster now. He lied that something fell off his car and he needed deary to come down to look at it. Sweet. That should do the trick.

SURPRISEEEEEEEE~~~

Happy 23rd~~~ Yea, we’re old…

memories of grandma

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One year ago, I felt what it’s really like to lose someone. Sis has always been wondering why I’m so emotionless. Yes, even I surprised myself when I could not control my tears. They were tears of guilt. Up till the day you left us, I was complaining about you. I do not take back what I felt because you indeed were a difficult patient. I only feel sorry that perhaps I should have been a little nicer and tolerant.

No matter what, you are my grandma and I love you. However much I showed my displeasure in your final days, deep down I have always respected you as my elder and admired your courage. You always treasured family togetherness. When Dad quarreled with uncle, you felt heartbroken because siblings should love each other and not fall apart. You taught me to love and treasure my parents, my family.

I felt a certain kind of happiness when I heard you wish Sis that she would find a good partner – someone who would take care of her during our last Chinese New Year together. I have found someone too. He takes care of me and respects me. Although it is still too early to tell what will happen in the future, we are working on strenthening our relationship. I wish you could see him.

I am now studying in USA. I am still a little unsure about what I want to do in the future. But, no matter what, I know you will give your blessings and tell me to study hard.

Continue to watch over us from heaven. Although you aren’t physically here anymore, you will always be around coz like Mum says, you are our guardian angel.

a little more sunshine

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“ね、さくら満開~~~ ね、さくら満開~~~”　<<モーニング娘｡ さくら組　- さくら満開>>

Finally I get to settle down to writing a entry. It’s Spring yo. Warmer weather, flowers all bloomin’…I like~~~

SSA
I got the post of Web Director! :heart: I know I didn’t give a very convincing speech, but trust me, I’m very thankful I got the post.

Although there are just those few times I wish I didn’t get that post… It means greater responsibility. Sometimes I get scared I won’t be able to live up to people’s expectations and I’ll be so ashamed of myself. Also, this is something which comes between deary and I. I don’t want to give this up coz it’s something I like to do, yet if it’s going to hurt our relationship, I’ll rather not have it. Although whatever has happened has passed now and we sort of settled it, I really hope things like that won’t have to happen again and again. I don’t want to have to keep feeling like I’m losing myself coz I’m trying to make the relationship work at the expense of my own happiness and my own true self.

Birthday
I spent a quiet birthday with deary. Although the weather was kinda crappy, deary managed to make me feel special. We had dinner at Olive Garden and later he spent some time with me.

I got a shock when I returned to my dorm. Jordan, Xincai, and Kang Jie came out of nowhere with a cake to surprise me. Hehe…deary planned it. Thanks for the cake and sweet gesture, my friends~~~

My RA got me a slice of cake too. 🙂

And to all those who left me birthday greetings, thanks! To 7ners: I miss you girls!

School
I couldn’t get into Japanese class…again. I’m so sad. 🙁

There was an earthquake on Friday. 4+am I woke up to a mildly shaking bed. In my sleepiness, I was wondering if I was just imagining it until the creaking of the wooden frame of my bed and the swaying of my bathrobe ties confirmed that it was real. Haha, finally something “happening” for boring ol’ Urbana-Champaign.

Relationship
Yes, there are sacrifices to be made. It’s kinda hard at times, but I believe we’ll overcome all obstacles together. For once, deary actually told me how he really felt. I felt kinda proud that I am a positive influence in his life. I also felt really blessed.

CJ said to enjoy the “honeymoon” period while it lasts. Yea, 3 months of honeymoon sweetness and we’re already passed 2 months. It kinda scares me a little. I don’t want to quarrel with deary and hurt each other. I think we both don’t want to lose each other.

爱越深，就越害怕失去。

I think it’s kinda impossible not to quarrel, but I pray to God that we’ll both be fine at the end of the day. I have faith in God that if he made us come together, he will help us grow as a couple and strengthen our relationship a little more each day. I also have faith in deary that we’ll treasure our relationship and work together to strengthen it.

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[edited on April 10, 2008 @ 12.25am]

To self: お誕生日おめでとう!!!

Hmmmm…ok, back to being a muggertoad. Yea, why do I have an exam on my birthday? 🙁

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Elisia is soon to be 23.

Damn…I’m old.

PS: Did you see ロリータ姫 around the Quad today? She was happy to be in the dress, but it was cold~~~

monsters behind the masks?

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I have to learn that people aren’t always what they seem. There’s always a hidden agenda…but, isn’t it tiring to keep up with a pretense all the time?

Is it wrong to see the goodness in everybody? (Well, until I get burnt real bad.)

I don’t want to name names or get nasty, so if you think you’ve been doing that, it’s time you reflect on what you’ve done and I shall reflect on what I’ve done. Oh, and in case anyone wants to start talking bad behind my back. I dare you to say it in my face. It’s called having the guts to do so.

the huge screw up

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[edited on April 4, 2008 @ 8.20am]

I had a good chat with my TA yesterday morning. He told me not to worry too much about the grade as mid-term grades are usually not a good representation of how you’re overall doing. Told me to participate more in class and do well in the final exam and I should be ok.

Hmmmm…it’s not that I don’t believe what he says, but I’m kinda worried still. Professor emailed back about my extra credit paper saying that it was a little weak so she gave me 0.9 points for it. 1.0 points is what she normally gives and 1.5 points for an exceptionally good paper.

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Fuck. I screwed up for Anthropology. My mid-term grade is C+. I didn’t see that coming so I was pretty crushed. I wish I hadn’t opened that email right before Advertising lecture. Had to hold back my tears until after class.

Why do I have to go through this every semester? Last semester it was Rhetoric. This semester is Anthropology. And I worked harder this semester ok. I hate surprises. I hate myself for not opening my mouth during discussion sessions.

I just hate myself.

PS: Deary, sorry I took some of your study time. 🙁

SSA post

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[edited on April 1, 2008 @ 10.15am]

Ok, so now I’m voted for the web director post, but…

I have competition.

Of which, I think one of them is not much of a competition coz he knows I want the post, but the other two…CS majors lehz…

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AKIRA SHOCK!!!

*PANIC MODE*

WHO VOTED ME FOR CULTURAL DIRECTOR AR?!

Not that I really object or anything, but I would much prefer being web director. So I can mess around with the SSA website. As it is, the alignment problem is an eyesore (at least for me).

*mumbles* Must be coz I keep asking people to support J-Net activities. Ya, Japan Night is on 13 April. Please come ok? I will be at the Kingyo Sukui booth.

Ok, I have one week to think whether I really want this or not…

Shock. Denial. Shock. Shock. Shock.