it’s always a trade-off

There are so many wonderful activities out there and I wish I could be part of them all. BUT…I also realise there is a huge trade-off. More time spent on activities = less time spent on studies = studies CUI!!! How now brown cow~~~ *whines*

Yes smartypants, I know that it’s all about time management. However, different people have different rates of absorption of material and mine happens to be (VERY) low, so I need more time to absorb material.

All this sucks. :angry:

PS: I got 95/100 for my Meteorology exam #1. It was relatively easy that’s why. Short of 2 marks to an A+, but it’s still an A, so yea… :happy:

PPS: Economics quiz #2 tomorrow. I have the CUI feeling. 🙁

PPPS: Because I need time to study for Economics, I’m putting off reading “The Tale of Genji” for EALC305. Grasping for more time… I really need to complete reading the 2 chapters coz I have a worksheet to complete.

i found my path

This is about the best thing that has happened to me this week. I am no longer major-less! Woohoo! I GOT ACCEPTED TO COLLEGE OF MEDIA, ADVERTISING MAJOR!

*dances and twirls around*

Thank you Deary for helping me with the application essay. You deserve a treat from me + a big hug and kiss! :heart:

fall 2008 semester

Here I am sitting in front of Maru-chan, furiously typing away while stopping at random moments to feed myself some cereal. Yes, cereal is my lunch as I am aiming to lose a bit of weight. So, what happened after I got on the plane back to USA? Did I drop off the face of this Earth? Well, no. I was just trying to get my life back in order. It really feels I’m living 2 lives now. One is when I’m in USA and studying for the sake of a good GPA, and the other is when I’m back at home (Singapore) and lazing about.

As most of you already know, I moved out of Evans Hall and into a graduate hall – Sherman Hall. Oh God, was I disappointed when I opened my room door for the first time. It’s like a prison cell compared to Evans 420, which used to be my spacious lot. My bed is now elevated, like it was in Deary’s ex-dorm room. No help being a short person since I have trouble climbing onto the bed. I have a fridge and microwave now, but that doesn’t console me much since my table is a freakin’ small thing which obviously cannot house both Maru-chan and my printer on its surface. I have to put the printer under the table which is quite a hassle. Well, I guess you win some and you lose some. It’s like a trade-off, no dorm food for a smaller room.

Deary’s apartment is better, but it has its cons. The lighting is BAD. If you want to live with the original lighting, you might as well become a mole. The stupid carbon monoxide alarm is faulty? It goes off after someone has a long and hot bath. Deary bought another alarm and tested it in the house and it was fine. Anyway, I wish I was staying in Daniels Hall coz then I’ll be closer to Deary. Better still, I’m waiting to see what Jordan and Thung Han says about their apartment coz Jordan decided to move out and his room is now vacant.

I spent the last few days getting things done. Buying my textbooks, rearranging my timetable, settling bank stuff etc. I couldn’t get into ECON103, but went for the lecture anyway. Yesterday, I got lucky when someone dropped it, but the discussion slot is at 8am. Why am I plagued with 8am classes EVERY semester? Deary says he doesn’t mind exchanging his discussion slot with me, but that means I’ll have Econs discussion at 10am at Armory. I have class at 11am at Gregory Hall. That gives me only 10 minutes to walk the distance.

Japanese class has started too. We have begun learning hiragana. I’m going to be pretty bored for a few weeks since I already know hiragana and a bit of katakana. Japanese class is a lot stricter than when I learnt the language in TP. Good, coz I really want to learn the language and be able to read and speak it fluently. Class is everyday for 50 minutes and my teacher is Numata sensei.

Other than Macroecons and Japanese, I’m taking EALC305 – Japanese Literature I, ATMS100 – Meteorology, MATH161 – Statistics (same as STAT100).

Ok, more later. I need to go get one more textbook from the bookshop.

farewell again

So, it’s farewell again. 9 months till we see each other again. Met up with the friends I wanted to meet up with.

Poly mates had a farewell gathering for me on Sunday.

They gave me some farewell presents designed by the one and only, Xiuwei aka Mrs Wee. Thank you guys!

More stuff to decorate my room with and serve as motivation for me to work hard. Gonna be busy again when I get back. Moving into new hall, getting some groceries, attending meeting for the food festival, going to corn festival, preparing and helping out at Quad Day…then school starts on Monday. One last thing, cross fingers that there are still slots available for Macroecons.

fighting mushrooms and pigs

I know this sounds childish, but I’m back to playing MapleStory. After trying out too many Yahoo! game trials, I got fed up and went to reset my Asiasoft pin so I could play Audition and maybe Pangya. 10 minutes into playing Audition, I decided that I sucked at it and MapleStory is better. I play to kill my boredom and not coz I adore the game. I will probably get sick of it after some time and uninstall it.

In less than a month, I will be back in the States. I kinda dread studying like shit all over again just to get a good GPA. The worst part is it’s not like I have a choice coz if I don’t study like shit, my conscience will just nag me till I drop dead or something AND I will feel like nothing when I stand next to the rest…including deary. *psst* It’s not like I don’t feel like nothing already…

I contemplated telling you how I feel, but now I’ve decided to tell you. Only thing is, I’ll tell you on the 15th. No no…don’t worry, it’s nothing bad. Really…I swear.

how to deal with disappointment

I thought I had it planned and settled all nicely. Contact the relevant person, secure a spot, and include that in my application. Things were going pretty well until I received bad news in the form of an sms. I was denied internship coz 3 weeks is just too short. Huge blow…but I’ll push my luck a little. Replied saying that I don’t mind a job shadow which means I won’t be paid. The reply I got was that it could have been explored, however, HR must be rather busy so in short…no. Just politely replied to end off the conversation.

Dazed. Blank. What am I going to do? You don’t know how much this would mean to me. What it would cost me. What am I going to use to prove myself? Is it my fault? Did I bring this upon myself? Should I have just gone ahead as planned instead of cutting the time to 3 weeks? But I was really tired… 🙁

Thank God, I was with Deary. He gave me hugs and the strength I needed to deal with the disappointment. As everyone knows, I recover quickly from such unhappy episodes. I’m fine now and have some little plans in mind. Hopefully they work out fine.

Looking on the brighter side, at least I get the time I want to fully relax.

spring 2008 results

After so much worrying, I finally got my results…

ADV300 – A+
ANTH103 – B+
EALC135 – A
EALC250 – A
IB100 – A

Total GPA = 3.86
Cumulative GPA = 3.55

My cumulative GPA suffered a little coz of last semester’s GPA of 3.21. 🙁

adv300

I got A+ for ADV300!!! Woohoo~~~

I was really worried for it. Deary says I’m becoming a worrywart. Can’t help it. I’m not smart; I only have commonsense. How I know? Coz people seem to get As effortlessly. They often say they have been slacking, but they last minute pia, that’s how they got their A. Shit, if I ever tried that, I would most probably get a B or C. I have to work so hard that I almost feel like dying before I see my A.

I often thought that you must want something so badly. Only then will you push yourself harder to get it. So, when I saw a lot of people handing in their work at the early deadline for the bonus 20 points, I got pretty worried. I couldn’t meet the early deadline and really was about to cry then. Did I not want it hard enough that’s why I didn’t push myself more?