wishes

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Today is your birthday. I struggled within myself of whether to even bother or not. After what happened, you and I will never be that close again. You never even apologised to me. To me, apologising would mean that you acknowledged what you did was not quite right and you realise it. Or at least bring up whatever you were unhappy about.

It made me think back of my birthday this year. The disappointment I faced. This wave of jealousy comes over me. Coz I know you’ll be surrounded by them today.

But yet, I felt it’s wrong. Coz these are 2 different issues. How can I condemn you for everything? You still have your good points. And if I wanted to call myself a Christian, shouldn’t I be more forgiving? It’s like practising what you preach.

So I messaged you to wish you. And I really meant it.

ice box

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It’s like winter in the office everyday. Even my jacket isn’t enough sometimes to keep me warm. Soon I might look like this…

Oh yes…wrapped up in a blanket, reaching out for the hot water. *lol* Yea yea…I’m no artist so my drawing isn’t great…

If you wanna know what boredom does to you, this is it. This fella from my department *no idea what his name is* often goes through the door to the next department. I suppose either he’s going to the pantry or toilet at the other end. Anyway, today when he passed by my cubicle to get to the door. I heard him go “sssshhhhiiiu sssshhhhhhiiiiiuuuuuuuu”. By the time I turned round to see what was going on, he already passed by my cubicle. But I did catch him waving his rolled up paper. I guess he was sword-fighting with the air. *rofl*

Had a wonderful dinner with Nad. Met up at Orchard. Walked round the fair at Taka’s basement. All the mooncakes since Mooncake/Lantern festival is coming soon. Finally ended up having dinner at Coffee Club. Nad decided to test whether the waiters would ask if we’re of legal age by ordering Tiramisu Latte. We don’t exactly look 18 and above…especially me…although we are already 19.

After the waiter took our orders without asking, we were talking about it. Said things too soon coz the waiter turned back and asked whether Nad was having Tiramisu cake or latte. She said latte and the waiter kinda insisted she pointed to the cake on the menu. Which was so not true. Oh well, maybe he had cake in mind. And he did ask if we were of legal age.

And then, Nad wanted to know his name. Haha…so there…when she asked for serviettes, I took a quick glance at his badge. It read “Kid”. She didn’t stop there. Now, she wanted to know how old he is. Finally controlled our laughter and she asked. Ok…same age. Manz…so hilarious.

After dinner, went back down to the basement to get ice-cream. There was this stall selling gelato ice-cream. Looked heavenly. This time, dear Nad wanted to collect the spoons. Coz they are cute colourful spoons. *lol*

What a fun time we had. Haha…

this world

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It does feel weird to be finally blogging. Supposed to be a daily blogger…oh well…

Let’s start off with the last season of Buffy. I was expecting a better ending. Preferably something like season 4 or 5. So, the last episode for the last season of Buffy did not go off with a big bang.

Well, Buffy and gang managed to save the world once again from evilness. *Read: Actually Spike was the one who saved them all* The First was destroyed. Oh really? *raises eyebrows* Sunnydale was…well…reduced to nothing. Everything sank in creating this huge hole. Everybody just stares at it. Faith asks what Buffy’s going to do since she isn’t the only slayer now. *Buffy shared her powers with the other slayers-to-be using Willow’s magic.* Willow in turn asks what were they going to do. Buffy just gives this little smile. And that’s it. Really…I’m not kidding. That’s IT. Wait a minute…THAT’S IT?!

Manz…

Mum went for this 3 day church retreat to Malacca from Friday till today. She’s back now. But during the slightly-less-than-3-days, I did miss my mummy.

The last few days, the advertisements for the President’s Star Charity have been playing on tv. The one which struck me most was the one on the 5-year old boy with aids. Each time it was played, it never failed to make me almost cry. We often complain that we never have time even when there is time for us. For him, there really isn’t time. Time IS running out. And there is no choice. The only time left is about 5 years?

Imagine dying in your childhood. You never got to experience what life really is. You never got to make important decisions for yourself. You never got to learn what the world really is.

In a way, God is kind. At 5 years old, I don’t think he really knows what is going on. So, he may live the rest of childhood *whatever’s left of it* with full of smiles and sunshine. Feeling the love and warmth of his foster family. In the end, dying with the wonderful memories.

Moving away from that topic, you’re not safe in this world anymore. Even in your own country. The recent bombing of the Australian embassy in Indonesia. The tragedy in Russia where school kids were killed. People talk about religion and God but do they really know what’s the meaning? Do they really know what’s the meaning when they kill one another? All they know is hate for one another and anger in their eyes.

What is this world coming to? What do we live for? Why do we even exist?

picking

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Taking a break from my editing and re-editing of stuff. Getting kinda sick of it. Never seems to end. I bet tomorrow there’ll be more. Coz my colleagues are having a meeting with the client the whole day. And I like to think that sometimes the client can be quite fickle minded. But can’t complain since they are the ones paying the company to do the task.

I’ve finally realised that the toilets aren’t safe. Why? The locks for the doors are those turn to latch kind. Which means when you turn the thingy to lock, on the outside you see the little circle turn red. When it’s not locked, it’s white. Thing is, under it there’s this slot, like a cut. If I’m not wrong, if you put a coin through the cut and turn, the door should unlock.

Speaking from experience coz in primary school, the toilets were such. Of course I ain’t so perverted to unlock the door when someone’s inside. But we’ll like have fun playing. So when the person inside is ready to come out, we’ll help her unlock the door from the outside. It also comes in handy if there’s an emergency where the lock kinda gets stuck. The ultimate would be to just climb into the empty cubicle next door to let yourself out.

Blah ah…back to my work.

never forget

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Have you ever felt like you wanted someone to know you. The real you but it never happened? Instead he/she chose to believe other stuff?

I can’t forget how you never liked me calling you “oei” coz you said it was unladylike. I can’t forget how you sing the Bob The Builder song. I can’t forget how you helped me flip my fringe to one side. I can’t forget the times you helped me with some computer stuff. There are so many things that make you special. An individual.

But no…you will never feel what I feel. Neither will I feel what you feel. Coz I’m not you and you’re not me.

Life can be so horribly unfair. But I have to learn to accept it.

new handphone

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I got my new handphone yesterday evening. Samsung SGH-X430. Not my dream phone but can do. At least it’s a coloured screen phone and not like my ancient Nokia 3315. *lol*

Had to pay another $100 on top of the $48. Coz my plan is a lower-end one. Remind me to read the fine print next time. *slaps myself*

Watched “A Cinderella Story” with Nad today. Just love chick flicks. *lol* And right now, am exchanging emails with Nad, discussing the handphone model. The one where Hilary Duff uses in the movie. Brand is Samsung. It’s blue. Maybe it’s not sold in Singapore.

If you can solve the mystery of what the model is, leave me a tag or comment. Haha…

Nad said I sounded like I wanted to get that phone. Nahz…not my dream phone. Although yea…nice cool blue phone but it doesn’t look like it has a camera. My dream phone is a flip phone with camera and antenna. Better still if it’s a nice shade of pink or blue. Altogether now…say WAIT LONG LONG! *lol*

phone battery dying

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Yesterday I tried my luck at lunchtime radio dedications again. This time I dedicated the song to Nad. Kimberly Locke’s “8th World Wonder”. And nope…Grace didn’t pick my sms.

Met Sis after work for dinner. I wanted to go check out the prices for handphones too. My handphone…correction, handphone battery is dying. Due to my overcharging, the battery is now a little cranky which makes it almost impossible to hold long conversations on the phone. Unless you want to risk getting our conversation cut off suddenly. So it’s either I get a new phone or a new battery. Of course, I’ll choose the former. Then finally I can own a colour screen phone. Mine’s like probably ancient…Nokia 3315. Well, changing a phone now means I probably wouldn’t get my dream phone *note: flip phone with camera and antenna* but anyway the phones which I’m eyeing on, the prices probably wouldn’t drop to an all-time low until about a year or so.

Current Singtel phone deals…lowest pricing…Samsung’s SGH-X430 at $48 or Nokia’s 6100 at $68.

Anyway, Sis and I talked about radio and she suddenly asked me whether I was the one who won Alter Bridge’s cd. Ermz…yea. Ok ok…I was bored. I had no idea what band that was. But from my internet searching. Thought the music from the band wouldn’t be that bad. Need to look for new music…getting sick of the songs in my playlist.

Haha…now I know her workplace, the people on the radio the whole day. Maybe I should dedicate a song to her. At first I was thinking of Maroon 5’s “This Love” or Black Eyed Peas’s “Let’s Get Retarded”. But no, I’m nice…so yea…thinking now.

“let’s get retarded (HA!)…let’s get retarded in here…”

let’s get retarded

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Read from Streats yesterday that Susilo proposed to Jia Wei. So sweet. *smilez* I don’t know, but I had this feeling he would propose to her when she returned to Singapore from Athens. 🙂

Had dinner with Nad again yesterday. She was all excited about using her ezlink card to get points from Mac. So we went to Mac at TM. Haha…

The whole of yesterday, I was just listening to the radio while doing my work. Lunchtime dedications. And yea, I was bored enough to send an sms dedication. Grace didn’t read out the sms which kinda said “I would like to dedicate Maroon 5’s “This Love” to everyone”. Haha…coz she said to keep it under 160 characters which is like really little so there you go, crapz sms. BUT YEA! She played the song.

“This Love” has this really funny tune to it that kinda gets stuck in your head after awhile. I was irritating Sis by singing the first few lines of the chorus over and over again last Sunday. Another song by Maroon 5 that’s nice is “She Will Be Loved”.

The good thing about listening to the radio is you get to know about new songs which are nice. Like Ashlee Simpson’s “Pieces Of Me”, Hoobastank’s “The Reason”, Black Eyed Peas “Let’s Get It Started”, Clay Aiken’s “I Will Carry You”.

Talking about the Black Eyed Peas song. I wanted to know the title of the song so did a search for the lyrics online. Oh! I thought I heard wrongly coz I found the lyrics for “Let’s Get Retarded”. Later on I found out that they re-did the song with different lyrics but same tune which is “Let’s Get It Started”.

Oh well…

“Let’s get retarded…(ha!) Let’s get retarded in here…”

8 freakin’ am

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I’m in the office at like what? 8am! 8 freakin’ am?! I’m a whole half hour earlier. Even my supervisor doesn’t even come that early. And that doesn’t even give me the right to walk out half an hour earlier in the evening. How sad…

Yesterday the server was a bit crazy so I couldn’t really get much done. After work, met Nad for dinner. We walked to Funan Centre from the MRT station. Had pizza.

Our back and forth emailing has come up to 42 emails. RECORD! Now, anyone who wants a bit of company when they are working…you know what to do. Haha…

Haloscan acting funny again. No comments box. Leave a tag instead.

LOTR exhibition

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I changed my Provance username. It’s easier for me. Not used to leaving comments under another nick other than “eLiSiA” which is my own name. Haha.

Had a good lunch of roti prata. Egg prata! Since Mum was going to the market, I won’t mind having prata for lunch.

After lunch, Sis, Desmond and I set off for the Science Centre. The LOTR exhibition. Singapore is the only country in Asia to have this exhibition. Initially, we planned to go on Tuesday but since I have this readership interview with Seventeen magazine on Tuesday, we decided to go today.

My…we took about 3 hours to finish walking round the whole exhibition. I love the costumes. Too bad, photography is not allowed. But as usual, some stupid people don’t understand English or something. This lady in-charge had to announce to everyone to cooperate coz they keep getting signals from the sensors that people are taking photos.

Entry is not cheap. $20. Student price: $16. But it’s worth it. 🙂

Had dinner at this ramen shop in town. After dinner, walked round HMV.