kangae, misc

are we good or evil?

Yes! I’ve completed watching Liar Game. The last episode was kinda exciting seeing how each person tried to outwit each other and become the greatest liar and winner. I was trying to fight myself from cheating and pushing the time slide to the end to find out the ending first. I fought the temptation and managed to watch the drama…

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kangae

running in circles

“When is it gonna stop? When is it gonna stop? Who’s gonna stop it? Gonna stop it?”  – OLIVIA’s ‘Who’s Gonna Stop It?’ My heart spins round and round. We’re back where we started. 心はドキドキ…

gakkou, kangae

key to my future

I’ve got all the forms ready. I will be taking my photo at the embassy. I’m still all paranoid and jumpy inside. Please pray that I get my student visa successfully…or else I can just die.

j-ongaku, kangae, misc

new songs for me to sing

Sing Sing Sing Went CS-ing yesterday with Sis, Per and Joyce. So exciting! They updated the songs in the system so there were all the new songs. Kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~ :heart: I managed to sing NewS’ “星をめざして”!!! :heart: I also tried OLIVIA’s “Stars Shining Out”. I was a little afraid that I wouldn’t be able to manage it so I just kept…

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kangae, kazoku

bye bye, grandma

It was too cruel to see the flames engulf her. It was even more weird to see her body being reduced to just a pile of ashes. Yet a part of me knew that her soul had been released and she would be going to a good place. At the last moments of her funeral, the only words that were…

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kangae

just 4 hours

“Car crashes, tv shows. A drunkard on the side of the road. People runnin’. Fantasy or reality. Analysis and theories. What does matter really? — Standfast ‘Car Crashes’ “ Just 4 hours and everything has changed. The feeling is just surreal. It’s like a movie being played. Except that everything is just fast-forwarded to the sad ending. A scene keeps playing in…

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kangae

cinderella

2 days of freedom and a million messages (sms, friendster etc) later… WELCOME BACK TO REALITY. I really felt like Cinderella. PS: Ok, ‘million’ would be exaggerating. Anyway, thanks for the birthday messages.

kangae, kazoku

where do we go from now?

“Where do we go from now?” Today will be the 4th day Sis is in hospital. I don’t know what or how to feel. But that’s how I am. Sis always said I am kinda unfeeling. I wonder if it’s true. I neither cry nor brood over such matters, even it’s bad news like someone has passed on. It’s like…

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kangae

a confusion of emotions

I received 2 letters from DePaul University. Something which I have been looking forward to. I opened the first. I was happy. They acknowledged that they have received my application. I didn’t think much of the second, thinking that it was just some information during the wait of the processing of applications. My heart sank. They rejected me. To tell…

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