letting it all out

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My domain is down. That kinda sucks coz I can’t update pages. And I have to stare at a very unflattering font for this blog. Bleargh.

I’m having mixed feelings about posting comments, saying what I feel in a certain friend’s blog. Because I know that my words won’t sound nice. But there is a reason why I say that stuff. And I suppose no one will understand that. They’ll probably think that I’m just trying to put that friend down. I’ll get slammed right to the other side of the world.

I feel so enclosed. I am one who speaks her mind easily thus the feeling just makes me so frustrated. Another friend mentioned that the way we think this way is because we know this friend far better than the other people there.

On to the day’s happenings. I went to help out JCG’s AGM. I thought that they had everything in order and I’ll have fun there feeling like it really is a mini matsuri event. Unfortunately not. In my mind, I pictured our Arts and Entertainment sub-comm playing Kanjani8’s “Naniwa Iroha Bushi” (a very matsuri feeling song) out loud. While the people came to play games and in the end join our group.

Well, our sub-comm table just had 2 yukatas and a matsuri coat *not sure what that one’s called*. People could put them on and get their photo taken at 50 cents. Then there was this girl who requested I demonstrated wearing the yukata first before she tried it on. Hell. Fumbling around with no help at first. Then someone came to help but it still turned out strange. ちょっとおかしい! Fumbled around for an hour. Getting frantic coz it was so hot and I had to leave.

Per finally had to come over to wait for me. She helped me a bit but by then we HAD to leave. So we left with me feeling a bit bad for not putting on the yukata properly for that girl to see. Actually if I didn’t have any other activities later on, I would have stayed through the whole AGM and perhaps worn my yukata from home.

Per and I went to Zouk for Samsung Fun Club’s 2nd Birthday Bash. Seriously speaking, it’s my first time going to a club. The atmosphere was just DOT DOT DOT. Nothing wrong with the music but the people were really just sitting there. Taufik and Singaporean newcomer, Jones Shi Kang Jun performed and the people were just sitting there. Except for a really small group of Taufik fans. Oh my…if some group or singer I liked was on stage, I would be SHOWING some form of support.

Most of the time there, Per and I were just discussing about NewS and Kanjani8. HAHAHA…

There were no freebies except for 2 cups of soft drink. -_-|||

donnamonya back to life

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Our (Per and I) donnamonya has come alive! Back then in secondary school, we kept one. It was on paper. Now Per has continued by email. うれしい~~~(Per, did I use the word correctly?)

What is donnamonya? It is like a discussion about anything.

Haha…I’ve changed my MSN avatar to the screencap of that Honjani episode where Kanjani8 (minus Ryo and Uchi) have to try their hand at cooking Italian food. It’s the screencap of Ohkura and Yasu…damn funny. Ohkura burnt his finger and said the hair’s all gone!

So no more 大阪レイニーブルース Ryuhei. Haha…but I made a handphone wallpaper with that pic. I told Per that I hope when we go to Samsung Fun Club’s birthday bash, they’ll give freebies like more fun club points. So can make more wallpaper for free. Ok…not really free coz I have to pay for the GPRS to download them into my handphone. What? You think I’m going there to see Taufik? Haha, I’m going there to be a freebie monster.

This Wednesday is also JCG’s AGM. This year I think it’s more special. They intend to have some games like the yo-yo fishing.

click click type click

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Click click. Type. Click.

Repeat this for another few thousand times. Tell me whether your eyes go awry.

Busy uploading images into the database. Well, maybe you could blame it on stupid us who didn’t know how to implement batch upload. Ok, I might as well just shut my mouth here coz this uploading part was done by Zhihao *our saviour* for this darn FYP.

And I’m itching to do other stuff. Like now. I’m taking a short break. I can nod off while doing all this stuff ok even if there’s Koda Kumi belting out fine sounding tunes on Windows Media Player.

Alright. Back to the clicky click.

the dimmer side

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I am almost done with the layouts and all. Just that I have a small problem with the cache. Now I really wonder why. In school, it seems that when I update a page, all I have to do is click on the refresh button twice and I see the changes.

Back at home, no matter how many times I refresh the page, I still get the old one. Don’t tell me to empty the cache and change the settings to “every visit to the page”. Done that.

This is rather frustrating.

Anyway, I’m going to Malaysia tomorrow. Going to celebrate my paternal grandpa’s 80th birthday. Today we just celebrated my maternal grandpa’s birthday in advance.

Work on the portal isn’t going too great. It takes a long time to load each result page. If 2 or more people start to search, the whole portal lags and hangs like nobody’s business. Zhihao says that it might not work even if we were to upload it to the school server. And we only have until next Wednesday to work on it.

Haha…we joked that maybe the whole portal might end up exclusively for Ms Tan’s use only. Wahahahahaha…

my bleak future

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Wednesday…Had our FYP presentation. I really couldn’t tell if it was good or bad. But I knew we sure did get someone in a fix when he couldn’t really answer Ms Tan. Optimising thumbnails…I shall not forget that moment of “sweet revenge”. Well, he does deserve it anyway.

All I know that if we ever thought that this was the end of the project, that we were never going to see it again…boy, were we so wrong. Ms Tan is really serious about getting it up and running for them. She asked us to continue with it after our exams.

I’m not sure how much more we can handle since Zhihao is going to start working in April which means it’s pretty much Weiqi and I left. Forget about Daniel. I don’t think Weiqi and I can really handle a lot of in-depth php scripting. We really suck at it.

Well, today I started work on revamping all my sites. I’m done with the fanlistings and tcg pages. Next would be the main blog. Not sure whether I will be able to work on it for the next few days.

It’s rather alarming that people around me have more or less settled their plans for further studies after graduating from polytechnic. Already some people have gotten accepted into a certain university.

I took a look at whatever Pwen linked on her blog and discovered that most universities offer more or less the same IT degree courses. Computer Science or some intense networking stuff. Really not my cup of tea. I’m thinking whether to totally give up IT and go into business or something. I mean I do have interest in IT, more on the website designing. But I seriously lack the flair for it. Look at all my designs so far. It pales in comparison to like Nad’s or Ling’s.

I do have plans to take SATs and have even asked my aunt who’s coming down from the States to bring along some brochures for University of Illinois. But I really don’t know if I will go through with my plans in the end.

Sis suggested maybe I could take up another diploma or something. I don’t want to seem like I’m wasting these 3 years.

See…I’m not good at anything. ANYTHING at all. It seems like such a bleak future for me.

a heffalumpish story

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Went down to The Amara to lunch with Sis at O’Briens since I have a voucher and it was also to visit Joyce.

After which, we caught “Pooh’s Heffalump Movie”. Surrounded by lots of kids. Haha, the 2 of us…the only big kids. I like how Winnie The Pooh stories are circled around the topic of friendship and learning to love and accept others. Good values a kid could learn.

Now, I’m just itching to add on some stuff to my FYP so that tomorrow will be a slightly better presentation.

colour and composition

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*slaps myself* That’s for leaving your cds assignments to the last minute. My gawd…I think I can’t finish it on time. Bleargh.

Haven’t even looked through my CMSK stuff for tomorrow’s technical writing test. Blah ah.

I meant to think back and blog from what happened Saturday onwards but I don’t think my brain can handle it at this hour. All I can remember is that I got my Arashi and Johnny’s Jr calendars. *victory sign*

I have decided to make my next layout feature Hilary Duff. Nyeh nyeh nyeh… Shall keep the layout more or less the same as this one. That means it will still be a irritating-to-some-sideways-scrolling layout. If Nad doesn’t mind though since this layout is done by her so I’m officially asking whether I can borrow her idea for free. Wahahahahaha…

your concern made my day

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I have learnt that I can find answers for quite a lot of stuff from the internet. Spent the past few days looking for PHP coding examples…and today, adding an image to my GUI with Java.

I am rather glad to say that the ENMM project is over. Although I didn’t get high marks for my phase II, just a C+, I am rather contented. At least now I can pick up on my sleep a little.

I really do need sleep…badly. I’m starting to space out a lot again. Dangerous. When Weiqi asked for paper, for some unknown reason, I kept fumbling around my bag when my file was right on the table.

I was touched when Don msn-ed me this morning to say that he is willing to help me out in any way for ENMM or Java coding for that matter. It was just out-of-the-blue, sincere concern. Although it was sort of last minute, I really appreciate the concern. Thanks! You made my day. Really.

tired and sorry

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I’m really tired. Few days of sleeping at 4am has really taken its toll on me.

And it doesn’t help that I suck in Java. Sitting in the comfort of familiar surroundings at home. Everything is more or less there for me to work. And I have to get stuck.

Well you see, I do know what I want to do. Click this, what will happen. But the problem is I don’t know how to type out the codes to make it work.

Sitting there staring at what to put into the actionPerformed area. Panic a little since the submission is Friday. I won’t have much time to work on it since there’s still FYP to complete. It really doesn’t help that we have one member who isn’t doing anything. Finally, I give up. Shall get someone to help me out tomorrow. Wonder who will be patient enough to sit down with me to help me out. Or else I can just blardee fail ENMM and come back next semester.

I’m so sorry I ain’t good at anything.

I’m so sorry I’m such a slacker.