for so long…so long

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I’m not sure if I should go on a hiatus. I don’t get much computer time anymore. When I get to use the computer, I’ve got other things to do…blogging becomes last priority and I never get to it in the end. When I want to blog, I don’t have access to my computer.

I’m still trying to figure out my own emotions. It was a momentary release when my grandparents went back to Malaysia for 6 days or so. No, it was a momentary release for 3 of us (Mum, Sis and I). I felt I could breathe again. I didn’t have to feel guilty for once and I could go around the house doing the things I wanted to. I didn’t have to feel like I was keeping my temper in check all the time. Although I hate that I have to be like that, I can’t help it. All the disappointment just sums up. I don’t feel like talking to my own grandparents. How fuckin’ sad is that?

At work, I just go about doing my work and stop thinking about my own emotions. I guess it’s to numb out what I feel. Anyway, at work there’s always other things to worry about. Like whether I’m doing things right and that I should keep mistakes at a minimum.

Oh by the way, I’m still in NTUC Income. I was going to quit but they offered an admin position. So I’m in the Motor Processing team now. Basically, I just key in data for Motor insurance proposals and issue Motor insurance policies. Of course, data entry is always a boring job coz it’s routine but I think I much prefer that to being a call agent. At least I don’t feel like murdering anyone anymore.

I’m on an AAA high again. I just asked Ling to help me get their 2nd and 3rd concert dvds at Narita airport if she manages to find them. Thank God she’s only transiting or else I would have asked her to get me a lot more stuff and she’ll hate me for that. Heehee~~~ I got their 2nd album with dvd from Mariyanto’s friend. Happy~~~

I’ll be broke this month. I spent $200+ on NewS. So happy that they are back. I still remember listening to “Dreams” and getting a little emotional. Ordered stuff from this year’s spring con (I won’t get to go anyway…) + their new single (both normal and limited editions) + 2007 calendar. Kinda pissed off that I ordered Jrs calendar coz I thought NewS wasn’t going to have their own calendar. Guess I’ll sell it off later if I don’t want it. I kinda have this small nagging feeling that Kusano and Uchi are not coming back and that NewS will remain as a 6-man group. Hope I’m wrong… Anyway, thanks to Celestine for helping me get Massu’s uchiwa from Countdown concert. 🙂

Magazines will be coming in this Friday. Mise was closed yesterday…so no Miso Soup till next weekend. So much for getting high in HMV when I saw Miso Soup on the shelf. 

NewS released a new pv for サヤエンドウ! Ain’t that great though coz it’s mostly scenes from last year’s spring con. And sorry Massu, Shige looked the most handsome in spring con while singing サヤエンドウ. But Massu as usual, you made me laugh.

I finished watching “궁“. *victory sign* Very enjoyable korean drama. *dreamy look* Conquering “タイヨのうた” next. 沢尻 エリカ looks very different in タイヨのうた. Way more grown up than in １リットルの涙.

Was kinda happy when I saw NANA anime episodes uploaded in clubbox. But alas, my happiness was shortlived. It refused to download. Damn. Cathay should really bring in the NANA movie. What are you guys waiting for? It was already featured in the Singapore news. BRING IT IN!!! Sidenote, Ling also thinks that 市川由衣 doesn’t suit the role of 小松奈々 in NANA2.

Lastly, merry christmas, happy birthday, happy new year, happy whatever…all the occasions I missed wishing here. I missed blogging about Wawa’s, Chloe’s, Yui’s, PK’s, CJ’s, Sis’s birthdays. I missed blogging on XW and Paul’s wedding. Congratulations to both of you. I missed blogging on 7ners gathering at Albert Court Hotel. Things which I don’t feel like blogging anymore. No reason why. Once the feeling is gone, it’s gone.

heart pain

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“Heart pain lahz~~~”

Johnnys-net is making me feel like stabbing myself. NewS is having spring con and I can’t goooooooooooooooooooo~~~ Not now or even the near future. Unless they have summer con which I doubt.

Who ask me to click on the link lahz~~~ 😥

the smell of home

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“Chou ii kan ji~~~”

I finally remembered to check out Tego and Massu’s “Miso Soup” on youtube last night. Ne~e…I wasn’t really paying attention to the meaning of the song though I caught it coz I was busy trying to figure out what both of them were singing. English version. So, trying to make out their “engrish”. Ok, I’m exaggerating a little. I could hear some sentences.

The familiar taste of Mum’s miso soup. The taste of home. All the little things that make you think of home. I always smell my jacket coz it has the smell of the fabric softener which reminds me of my mum and home.

I think the song has similiar meaning to Sankyoudai’s “Onigishi”.

Apart from that, Per was supplying me with all the youtube links to DBSK’s clips. Xiah is so cute! :rofl:

The weekend flew past quite fast. Saturday, Sis and I went to Lucify’s concert at Dbl’O. I think all the magic from SuperBand is wearing off. Heh…Singapore NEVER had a market for singers. And the attitude of the singers matter a lot. Most of them I’ll say have this snooty attitude after the competition. I know that life has to return to what it used to be but don’t forget that you wanted to choose this path and with it comes other “responsibilities”. When you wanted those votes, you pleaded with us and were so friendly. Now that you’ve got that little recognition, you ignore us. Where’s the logic in that?

Anyway, Sis and I agreed that the concert was a little of a disappointment. It didn’t feel like a concert at all but another MediaCorp recording. Host was the same one from the competition. The songs they sang except for 2 Japanese songs were all sung during the competition. Afterall, Lucify started out being a J-Rock band, so we expected them to sing more Japanese songs. I even imagined that I’ll be going to watch Blackstones or Trapnest. OMG…Ling, it’s all your fault now that I’m stuck on NANA.

SAT this coming Saturday. I can’t believe I’m going through this another time. That little bit more confidence I had was kinda wiped out yesterday when I was attempting a paper. I ALWAYS seem to run out of time. And I hate this fact when I’m happily working on the maths problems. It’s not that I don’t know how to work it out but I need more time to attempt the problem. Bleargh.

miso shiru

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Please pardon my retardedness (is there such a word?) Mrs Masuda hasn’t been doing her homework since August.

So the rumours are true. Tego and Massu have a new song titled “Miso Soup”. Haha…fancy singing about miso soup. Hmmm…but it suits Massu coz the boy loves food. Have yet to hear the song. I read about it in the forums but didn’t think too much. Saturday, Yui told me about it and I was feeling a little guilty not knowing. Hello, how can Mrs Masuda not know what is going on with her hubby? :rofl:

Anyway, someone in JPM actually met them in Sweden. KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! I think I’ll just be smiling like an idiot if I see Massu. The boy is too genki. :rofl: Can’t stop kyaa-ing now…

Idol is back in action on Yui’s tagboard. Idol is well…*sigh* just idol. No one, repeat NO ONE can compare to idol.

shoot

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First time in 2-3 months I enter Binan no Nikki and what do I see?

Masuda Tattata (63)

63 entries?! Shit. Major reading to do.

I’m thinking of changing Kuro-chan’s wallpaper to Mike. But I feel like I’m betraying Massu. And when the hell am I THAT crazy over Mike?! *shakes myself* Bloop bloop bloop…

your name in my notebook

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Sudden thoughts.

I didn’t blog about watching Death Note on Saturday!!! How could I have forgotten something so important?! :glare: Heh, so Sis, Jie Min and I caught the movie on Saturday. It was good.

Sis and I agree that Light (藤原竜也) reminds us of Ohno from Arashi. That’s coz his face is round, just like Ohno. Sis was kinda disappointed when she saw who was acting as L. That woman lahz…didn’t believe me when I told her the guy is the one acting as Aya’s senior in 1リットルの涙. Haha, she said he looked so cool on the poster.

L is a pretty weird but cool person. Somehow he eats nothing but sweet food. Doughnuts speared on a BBQ skewer. Sugar cubes stacked up tall and later dropped into his cup of tea. Tea stirred with a lollipop. Who would have thought of all these?

Anyway, after watching the movie, it makes one want to threaten anyone who irritates you with “You had better not annoy me or I’ll write your name in the notebook.” Death of an unknown cause. No previous medical history but a sudden heart attack. Sweet.

The God of Death loves eating apples. Do you?

Random thought #1: I shall add this under my wishlist… Dining in 小老板’s shop in Osaka with Per. I hope Per can save up enough money by next year so my wish can be fulfilled before I go off to study for 4 years (another ‘hopefully’ case). *cross fingers and toes*

Random thought #2: Seishun de FEVARrrrr! Mucha kucha na FUCHAaaaa ga ii ne~~~ Mike is cuter than Golf!!! :rofl: Since yesterday, DBSK’s “Rising Sun” and GYM’s “フィーバーとフューチャー” has been on my mind.

Help! It’s the attack of the little ants! A lot of ants appearing in my study room. Wonder where they come from. PK, can you tell your friends to stay away?

how i wish

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Selamat Hari Raya to all my malay friends.

Today is coming to an end. The long-awaited holiday. *really? raises eyebrow* Tomorrow will be back to work. How I wish everyday could be a holiday and that I am loaded so I can go all around the world.

Yesterday in the office, everyone was in the holiday mood. Then the holiday came. And now it’s going to end. 😥

Went to Sof’s house for lunch. Yea yea…I was late again. Sof, why do you have to live so far?

I need to stop spending so much. But I’m dying to go shopping for clothes… Blah ah.

Olivia’s new song as Reira, “Wish” sounds more rockish. I much prefer “A Little Pain”. But Olivia looks pretty as ever, just like a doll.

I finally caught GYM’s PV for “フィーバーとフューチャー” on youtube. Yea…Mike is cuter lahz.

the A of KAT-TUN

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KAT-TUN fans are probably damn upset now coz the A of KAT-TUN has announced he will be on hiatus for some time. I know how it pierces your heart that your Jin Jin will not be around. I was equally crushed when NewS announced their hiatus. So the bottom-line is…deal with it.

I’m not trying to be mean but at least we all know that Akanishi Jin will be on hiatus for studies. Look at Uchi. Gawd knows when he will be back. KAT-TUN will always be KAT-TUN with or without Jin’s physical presence. Just like Kanjani8 continued on without Uchi’s presence.

So wipe off your tears and give the man some good luck.

avex to H!P to JE

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AAA is soon releasing their new double A-side single, Soul Edge Boy/Kimono Jet Girl. Yep, you can guess from the titles that the guys and girls have split to sing one song each. I’ve got both PVs and I must say I prefer “Soul Edge Boy”. “Kimono Jet Girl” sounds a little weird. “Soul Edge Boy” has well, a much edgier feel to it.

And thank God, Shinjiro decided to grow out his hair and not pin it up like he did in the previous single. From his boy-boy haircut in the earlier single “Dragon Fire” to his horrible pinned up hair in “Hurricane Riri, Boston Mari” to his cool hairstyle in “Soul Edge Boy”. Now, who cares about Nissy when you have かっこいい Shinjiro. :laugh:

So I was watching the PV for the new MM song, Ambitious! 野心的でいいじゃん。It seems Tsunku is trying to groom Reina as the new star for MM. Or perhaps it’s a sign that Reina is gaining popularity. Anyhow, you always know which girl is the favourite for a period of time coz she stands at the front, in the middle. I was a little mad though. Reina totally blocked Ai-chan in the PV. :angry:

Talking about Ai-chan, she no longer sports dolly bangs. Her fringe is now grown long and side-swept. As I watched the PV, I suddenly realised that Ai-chan’s new image makes her look a lot like Hilary Duff. Here’s some proof…

As for Gaki-san, somehow I don’t like her new image for the PV. The curls at the side of her face makes her face look puny. But it seems she gained a little weight back since SEXY BOY. Her huge weight loss made her face look so small with her hair framing it.

This will probably be Kon Kon’s last song with MM as she will be graduating from H!P soon. She’s leaving to pursue her studies.

On to JE…got these memes from Ryoko’s blog.

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Meme #1
1. Which J.E. boy would you eat?
Eat?! WHY?!

2. If you can turn back the hands of time, who would you stop from joining J.E.?
Toma – look where he is now…not appreciated.

3. What happened to you that is NewS’s fault today?
I adore Massu and his sunshine smile so much that Arashi is being thrown to one side. But I still love Arashi of course.

4. You’re alone in a dark alley. Someone crept up to you, brandishing a cucumber that he thought is a knife. He wants that bag of tomatoes you just bought in the supermart. You realise he is a JE boy, he is…..
Jin. Kuruma ebi = car shrimp…what a genius. *rolls eyes*

5. You sprained your ankle wearing that hot pair of heels you just bought. A J.E. boy rushes over. Who is he and what did he do?
Tacchon. I fall back, he catches me in time, looks into my eyes and makes me all doki doki. So drama right? Have you watched Cinderella ni Naritai?

6. You are Harry Potter and am valiantly resisting Voldemort’s effort to retrieve your blood for his revival. However, he gets hold of a J.E. boy and threatens to kill him. Which J.E. boy will you bleed for?
Massu? *blink blink*

7. You are a J.E. boy. You love your ghei stage outfits. In fact, you make them yourselves, adding even more ruffles, lace, sequins and fur. Who are you?
Any member of KAT-TUN.

8. You are stranded and alone. In fact, you are LOST on this island. Suddenly, a J.E. boy comes up to you and started to sing this, while doing the conga, “I like to move it, move it. You like to move it, move it. We like to, MOVE IT!!!” You think, ‘nifty dancesteps’ and started to dance along. Who is he?
Junno or Maru (K8) coz they are not called baka and aho for nothing. :rofl:

9. You live with this J.E. boy, and he has this most annoying habit that despite his hotness, drives you all crazy and makes you want to ditch him and move out. Who is he and what is that habit?
P. Well, let me get this straight…he used to be under my favourites list which makes him hot. But now, all I feel like doing is giving him a slap. His habit? Maybe flexing his muscles all the time and showing off his man-boobies.

10. It’s hard to make a perfect 10. Make up your own question and answer it.
Gonna skip this…

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Meme #2
Top 5 JE boys:
1. Masuda Takahisa
2. Aiba Masaki
3. Maruyama Ryuhei
4. Ohkura Tadayoshi
5. Okada Junichi

JE boy you like least:
Jimmy Mackey but I think he left JE already.

JE boy you want as a best friend:
Yasuda Shota

JE boy you want to jump like its no one’s business:
Kusano or Maru (K8) coz I’m sure they’ll jump along.

Prettiest JE boy:
Uchi

JE boy you want as a baby brother:
None. But if you really need an answer…Daiki. He’s got such a cute face. *pinch*

JE boy most like you:
Wouldn’t know…

JE boy you’d be most compatible with, dating:
Wouldn’t know…

Oldest JE guy you like:
Tsuyoshi Domoto

Youngest JE guy you like:
Fujigaya Taisuke

JE group you like most:
NewS

JE group you like least:
I’m sorry, I guess it’s KAT-TUN.

Fave Arashi song:
サクラ咲ケ

Fave K8 song:
浪花いろは節

Fave NEWS song:
ずっと

JE pairings you support:
Tego x Massu. But certainly no ero ero stuff will be tolerated.

First JE boy you were introduced to:
Kimura Takuya

Aside from all the idol stuff. I need to go for a hair trim soon. I’m trying to accept my natural curls but I think I like my hair when it’s wet. When it’s dry, it’s all big, frizzy and messy. Total crap. :glare:

Still haven’t shopped for a new dress…*sigh*

i really thought…

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“我们的动作和说的话造成了彼此的误会与伤害。在那瞬间，我真的以为我就会这样失去了你这个好朋友。想着想着，我的眼泪就流了下来。朋友，真的对不起。。。”

The Lucify outing held on Saturday was (to me) kinda disastrous. From a dinner, it finally became a phototaking session. There was no difference from a recording day except that the sky was directly above us and not a ceiling. I mean I do appreciate the hard work of the organisers for this outing but I think it’s better to limit the number of people for the outing to make it more memorable…

Went to the recording for the revival round on Sunday. I happened to glance at the seats for the judges. New age seats. Wait a minute…they look like…urinals or basins? Then the cameraman caught them on camera and they were projected on the huge screen. Now, at that position with the new age tables in front, they look like toilet bowls. HAHAHA…

Anyway, we all know the results of the revival round now. I thought Juz-B was going to come through. But 迷路兵’s not bad too… :smile: 

To end Tuesday…Sis and I had some Jin birthday cake and Massu birthday cake…

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