mummy dearest

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“听妈妈的话，别让她受伤” – 周杰伦 ‘听妈妈的话’

I :heart: Mummy
Happy Mother’s Day! 13 May and I’m still acting like a brat. Just shoot me.

But of course, I love my mummy!!! ママ大好き!!! For having to put up with this わがまま娘, ママは最高!!! It’s useless to say sorry for this and that coz I’m going to keep doing it. Your patience with me is endless. 本当ありがとう。

Steamboat
I think that 天天火锅… place in Bugis is overrated. After watching the commercial repeat in the night, I was all set to try the place.

Last Saturday, Grace, Sis and I had dinner there. Just looking at the variety of food items on the lighted board outside the place made me happy. Got seated, chose the soup we wanted then went over to pick our food items… Ermz, where are the button mushrooms? There was a huge variety of ermz…balls – fishballs, sotong balls, prawn balls, meatballs, mushroom balls, vegetable balls but no button mushrooms. How can~~~~~~~

Mind you, having a meal there doesn’t come with a cheap price tag. I would have expected a better variety of food rather than just balls. Too bad, the steamboat place at TM is gone. Although the place wasn’t buffet style and probably cost more, the variety of food was good.

Meow Meow
There’s a temporary resident in Per’s house. A black cat named Boover, belonging to a friend. The good thing is you can touch Boover without having to fear of your hand bitten or scratched. Doesn’t really matter to me since I am quite afraid of cats. I can be in the same room with a cat but please don’t come near me. I tend to be a little more jumpy too.

Talking about cats, Sis and I name the cats around our neighbourhood.
Yoda – old cat with a limp and funny ears. Disappeared.
Calico – a very pretty calico cat but pity she’s a ‘fraidy cat. Disappeared.
Small Brown – young cat who has been coughing up hairballs lately.
Mean Face – well, he just has a mean face.
Ellie – looks like Mean Face but has a nice long tail. Sis came up with this stupid name which is shortform for ‘Elephant’. Just coz the cat is grey-ish. -_-|||
Oreo – black and white cat. Missing for a few days now.
Mikan – orange cat who loiters around the other end of the block.
Ham – funny little brown thing with frizzy fur and no tail.

Music
I got S.H.E’s latest album “Play”. Normally I would wait till later so in case the singer/s come for an autograph session and the album comes with the session coupon then. But I couldn’t wait this time. I wanted to get it so I can listen to it on my Japan trip. Familiarise with the tunes.

Luckily I rip the music out to fit into my mp3 player. Else, the cd would have been played until 烂。Same goes for 飞轮海’s cd.

I must say that there’s something different about this new album. More rapping and other music influences. I’m currently into the title track “中国话”. Haha, aiming to master the tongue twisters in the song. Wish me good luck with that.

Shock
H!P girl, Tsuji-chan is pregnant and getting married. Of course, that means she’ll have to leave H!P. In other words, kicked out.

In Japan, getting married at 19 isn’t something you should be shocked about since it’s common. But yea, never expected her to decide on something like that since she has still got a long way to go in showbiz. After Kago’s bad publicity, I thought Tsuji-chan would have been “more sensible”. Besides, she was named to form a new unit just recently.

Then again, these girls enter showbiz at a young age not really knowing what they want in life. The life in showbiz can be really cruel. You don’t have the time to do the things you want. Even if you get the time, you aren’t allowed to date and form relationships. You have to be really really careful all the time coz the public has their eye on you. Just say byebye to a “normal” life. It’s pretty interesting why then people still try so hard to enter showbiz.

Anyway, congrats to Tsuji-chan and thank God she decided to keep the baby.

Ouch
I was prepared, I had plasters in my bag. However, even with 3 plasters pasted on my feet, the damage was done. I have 4 blisters, the one on my left heel the most painful. Pretty new shoes = feet torture.

Mum says “Ai swee mai mia” (meaning “Wanna look good but don’t want your life”).

tadada tadatadaa

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Clothing and Online Shopping
Everytime I go to the mall, I see clothes and I think to myself that I need to shop for new clothes but I never get to it. There was a time when I got hooked on online sprees and would keep checking the site to make sure I never missed a good spree. Anyway, I didn’t go crazy and buy a whole wardrobe of clothes, only got about 2 pieces of clothing. But of course, everything has its cons. Buying online would mean I couldn’t try on the clothing to make sure it fit nicely. I have to just trust the measurements given and hope it fits. This time I joined 2 sprees and ordered 4 pieces of clothing. Crossing my fingers that they will fit ok.

I found a good online shop with Japanese inspired clothing but don’t seem to have any luck with it. So I signed up as a new customer and logged in. Click on the menu but it keeps throwing me back to the login page. I checked out their forum and found that I’m not the only one who has encountered this problem. However, there isn’t any helpful solutions. So, if you have luck with AsiaJam.com, do let me know.

Music
I’m hoping that some band will perform an OLIVIA song at the annual D’J Party. Since most performing bands play J-rock music, they could choose songs like ‘Stars Shining Out’, ‘Wish’ or ‘SpidERSpins’.

If you’re not the kind who listens to rock music, ‘SpidERSpins’ may seem a little too much at first. All the “drum banging” and furious guitar playing just seems like noise. But OLIVIA’s “tadada tadatadaa…” will soon get stuck in your head and the music will grow on you and finally you’ll learn to love it.

Rock music and an angelic voice/face seems to be an odd couple but OLIVIA has done it. One would never have imagined her with such a cute face to be associated with angsty/morbid album titles such as ‘The Return of The Chlorophyll Bunny’, ‘Comatose Bunny Butcher’, ‘Merry & Hell Go Round’ or ‘Internal Bleeding Strawberry’. Then again, she does it well and I find myself drawn to her music. Her newer works are less angsty and have more of a dreamlike sound so there’s variation and choice for those who just can’t stand rock music and morbid lyrics.

By the way, this sounds really random but my little first cousin, Lee Ann looks like a mini version of OLIVIA. 小小 OLIVIA…haha, how cute. :rofl:

Drama
Recently, I was talking to Shaz on MSN. Turns out, he’s watching 1リットルの涙。This is one drama I cannot stop talking about. It’s really sad and will make you cry buckets but it’s worth watching. Even better if you end up buying the book to read coz the drama and book is a little different.

I am even thinking of recommending the book to my aunt who has a condition that has almost similar effects as what Aya suffered from. Trouble is the book is only translated to Mandarin and I’m not sure my aunt can read Mandarin. I am hoping that the book will give her comfort and hope.

i’m ok, i really am

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I think everyone still thinks I’m just sad and moping around coz I’m MIA on MSN or I don’t really answer messages. I’m fine. I’ve been fine and dandy all week. Just that my computer’s being a little nasty so I can’t open so many programs else they will all hang and I don’t wanna screw up my downloads and have to restart the computer a million times. Oh, and I think I just wanna have the whole week to myself. Newfound freedom since stopping work before grandma’s funeral.

It’s funny how I watch my downloads progress, willing each download to go faster. Been downloading some episodes of 康熙来了 and 娱乐百分百。Also, a few drama specials. Waiting for these downloads to clear then I’ll start on the NANA anime. I finally found subbed episodes! :rofl:

I still think of grandma. It still feels so surreal. But I’m trying to face what’s now and not the past.

I’ve got my NewS spring con goods. *squeals*

Someone has become our favourite topic, our new idol. *sniggers* “Idol’s quotes is the bible. Idol’s word is the law…”

bye bye, grandma

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It was too cruel to see the flames engulf her. It was even more weird to see her body being reduced to just a pile of ashes. Yet a part of me knew that her soul had been released and she would be going to a good place.

At the last moments of her funeral, the only words that were imprinted in my mind were: ‘人总是在失去了才懂得珍惜。’

just 4 hours

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“Car crashes, tv shows. A drunkard on the side of the road. People runnin’. Fantasy or reality. Analysis and theories. What does matter really? — Standfast ‘Car Crashes’ “

Just 4 hours and everything has changed.

The feeling is just surreal. It’s like a movie being played. Except that everything is just fast-forwarded to the sad ending. A scene keeps playing in my head: “I reach out to grasp something but I hold nothing in my hands. It’s like everything is just an illusion, nothing is real.”

It’s karma. For all the unkind thoughts/words/behaviour…I will be damned now.

cinderella

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2 days of freedom and a million messages (sms, friendster etc) later…

WELCOME BACK TO REALITY.

I really felt like Cinderella.

PS: Ok, ‘million’ would be exaggerating. Anyway, thanks for the birthday messages.

almost there

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There are times when I almost want to burst, frustrated at my inability to reach my computer…

Sis
Thanks for the prayers. Sis has been discharged since last Saturday. I wouldn’t say that the problems have been solved but at least now that she has gotten a bit of help from professionals, I think she is also trying to sort out how she feels. It’s back to the rather cramped house (since my grandparents came to stay) but I guess everyone’s trying not to bother each other and step on each other’s toes.

School
I don’t care if people are going to say I’m desperate. As long as I know I tried, even if the ending is not what I want, at least I’m comforted.

I went to an American School fair. DePaul had a booth there. I talked to the school advisor. I know I sounded kinda strange coz I really didn’t know how to approach the topic. How embarassing can it get to “bother” people when I have already been rejected. But Mr Durbin was nice, he said he would check out with the admissions people to see what was the actual reason behind the rejection. He did offer a possibility that my poly grades are not considered academic and thus the only grades that were looked at was my O’level results (which sucked big time).

I was kinda disappointed to hear that reason. If it was 5-10 years ago, I would have accepted that reason. Poly was once deemed as the path for all those who got “lousier” grades and couldn’t make it to JC. But now, it seems that people like me (people who can’t even smell the air of JC) are fighting to get into poly with O’level 7-pointers. Which means that poly’s standards have been raised by a lot. Could almost say it’s of equal standing to JC.

So, the question is…do we poly graduates really have a future? What lies in store for us outside of the country if our grades are not going to be considered?

Work
My lunchtime buddy, Selina has left. 😥 I will always remember her love for the fried fish at the 菜饭 stall at the interchange. So much that she said she would burn their stall down if she didn’t get to eat it. Hahaha…oopz. Wishing her all the best in her studies. 🙂

Shimei, the new temp staff left after 3 days citing family reasons. Ok, that leaves me as the only temp staff left in Motor Processing. Which also means I have to do everything. Processing/issuing motor policies (DUH!), calling up other insurance companies to check on customers’ NCD (a tiring thing to do), franking and posting the mail, bringing down the motor proposals for scanning and passing the foreign maid payments for processing, facing the (nonsense) servicing staff downstairs.

Had quite a bad experience for the last. My colleague says that’s the “spirit” of most of the Income staff. Let me explain my position first. I am, well, just…THE TEMP STAFF, which means I am not in the position to argue with anyone lest I wanna get kicked out. Very dangerous position to be in. To put it nicely, the temp staff assists the full-timers with their work. To put it horribly, the temp staff does the sai gang.

Now that I’m done with explaining my position, I shall move on to that “spirit”. When a problem arises, everyone likes to 耍太极。Whoa, you should see how everyone becomes 太极 experts and the problem goes unsolved for a week or more. Hello, shouldn’t we be putting our heads together to solve it and then settle our differences later? And when a solution presents itself (whether temporary or not), shouldn’t we just take it first?

Now to put the 2 together… Being the temp staff, I’m usually the middleman for most things. You could say that it’s partly due to my unfamiliarity to most issues. But, there are times when I can see the solution so clearly that it frustrates me to see no one trying to well, MOVE! Oh wait, I can’t do anything coz I’m just the lowly *drumroll* temp staff.

Ktv
Met some poly mates last Saturday. Had dinner then moved on to KBox at Cine. Although KBox isn’t the choice place for Japanese songs (like I can’t find OLIVIA’s “A Little Pain” in KBox can I?), I know I can still find something Japanese to sing. Was kinda surprised to find 伊藤由奈’s “Endless Story” though. The last time we went to KBox, Per, Sis and I resorted to choosing the chinese version and Myojo Young Song lyrics. I would have done that for SweetS’ “虹色の永遠” but I didn’t have the lyrics on hand that day. And I DO NOT rely on romanji anymore.

Just coz I sing Japanese songs or utter a few Japanese phrases doesn’t make me pro. I only sing slower songs coz then I can read. Even if I sing slightly faster songs, it’s coz I am already familiar with the tune and most of the lyrics. More like memorisation work.

Heehee…going CS-ing on my birthday. Woohoo!

Elisia’s 必唱 Japanese song list:

  1. NewS – NEWSニッポン (super high song…1 2 3 4 5 6 7 it’s BIG NEWS!!!)
  2. NewS – 希望~Yell~ (another high song…can sing 90% of the song)
  3. NewS – チェリッシュ (it’s not really 必唱 since I can only sing the chorus part but we can do the hand actions…haha)
  4. NewS – ずっと (don’t care if it’s a bit low…Massu sang it and anyway, it’s a nice song)
  5. OLIVIA inspi’ REIRA (TRAPNEST) – A Little Pain (can sing 95% of the song)
  6. REIRA starring Yuna Ito – Endless Story
  7. YUI for 雨音 薫 – Good-bye Days
  8. 薫 雨音 (Sawajiri Erika) – タイヨウのうた
  9. Berryz工房 – ジリリ キテル
  10. モーニング娘。- ふるさと (will choose to sing it only if not in Cash)
  11. 宇多田ヒカル – First Love (will choose to sing it only if not in Cash)

Attempting/might attempt to make these songs 必唱:

  1. モーニング娘。さくら組 – さくら満開 (it’s slow enough…haha)
  2. SweetS – Color Of Tears
  3. SweetS – 虹色の永遠 (this is an exception coz the machine in Cash doesn’t have this song…have to use the chinese version)
  4. 大塚 愛 – 金魚花火
  5. 浜崎あゆみ – Who… (going to check out if the machine in Cash has it…love this song a lot)

Birthday
You never really notice that years have passed until you notice the poster on your wall is dated year 2003. Yea…the “A Ballads” poster on my room wall…

Can’t believe it’s my birthday again. I must have been working too hard to notice. Haha… I only noticed when Mum gave me the envelope to make a Lent time donation. I was like “I thought you gave us already…” then trailed off when I realised it was last year’s envelope I was referring to. Anyway, Lent time means it’s close to Easter which means it’s near my birthday.

Anyway, I haven’t really thought of what I wanted. More tamis I guess. Hahaha… I want a strawberry cake this year. Last year was black forest. I have compiled my wish list under ‘links’.

where do we go from now?

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“Where do we go from now?”

Today will be the 4th day Sis is in hospital. I don’t know what or how to feel. But that’s how I am. Sis always said I am kinda unfeeling. I wonder if it’s true. I neither cry nor brood over such matters, even it’s bad news like someone has passed on. It’s like I have to cry but I can’t. My brain just goes “oh.” and then nothing more. To me, life has to go on whether we like it or not.

I thought about it. I thought about how Sis said she’s on the verge of giving up. For once, I seriously thought about what if Sis really went away. A sudden fear crept up. What would I do? No, I don’t want Sis to go. As much as we quarrel over small little things, I will always look up to her and love her.

How do you give someone hope when she feels life is meaningless? What are we actually living for?

I am ok. Perhaps this is the strength that God has given me. That I know how to pick myself up and move on. Please don’t ask me if I’m ok or whether I want to talk about it. Explaining is tiring. I will talk when I want to. I know I have quite a few silent readers including relatives. Please don’t start asking my parents about it or insist on visiting Sis. Leave her to heal by herself.

Perhaps the only thing you can do now is to pray for her.

very beauty

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Every once in awhile, there must be a fangirl post… :love:

It’s Berryz工房’s 3rd anniversary! How time flies. Must say they have really grown. Even their music is starting to take on a more matured sound.

Their recent release…

The picture lies. That’s coz Yurina is much freakin’ freakin’ taller. She just sticks out from the rest. I :heart: Risako’s shoes! Oh and what Per said is correct. Miyabi’s name really suits her. She’s getting prettier and prettier each time. Tsunku, don’t be biased. Since you’ve given Risako a chance at a pictorial, why not give Miyabi a chance too? :rofl:

VERY BEAUTY sounds a little more matured from their older songs. The PV was nicely shot although I kinda feel the dance is odd. Hohoho…and thank goodness Momoko wasn’t given a lead part. I have nothing against Momoko, she is a very hardworking girl. But I do have something against her awfully cartoonish voice. Risako’s vocals are ok but they tend to sound strained at certain parts. Miyabi on the other hand, is a better singer.

Of course, talking about Berryz工房 reminds me of Maiha-chan. Kinda miss her. She’s so cute.